It was a night like many others. The stars were hanging lazily in the vast sky. My eyes captured them amidst the darkness. The temperature was too cold that I had shifted closer to the warm of our shared blanket.
“Do you know how love feels like?” she said.
I told her that perhaps I do know how does it feel like. Love. To be in love and whatnot.
“Does it have a sound?” she whispered.
It took me a while to conjure a good answer to that.
“How does Love sound like?” she pressed.
It was not an easy task, to think of the answer to her question while basking in her warmth. It was quite difficult to stir my mind when it was busy thinking about her way of whispering the question, a bit too rushed out.
As though she was afraid the chilling wind outside our windows could hear them. As though she didn’t want them to snatch away her million dollars question. Her round, big eyes were fixed on my figure. Her fingers found their way to my own, lacing them together. I shifted even closer, if that even possible. My brain working hard to answer them quickly, to make it as simple as I could.
The thing is, it was never easy. I couldn’t bring myself to tell her that it sounds like her never-ending strings of sleep-talk. I couldn’t tell her that love is in the way her breath hitched everytime I took her hand in mine. That it sounds like her light steps on our kitchen floor, her soft voice calling my name to taste whatever she baked that day, the soft murmur that she didn’t realize she let out whenever she wasn’t sure what to order for takeout.
It made itself known in her easy, childlike laughter. I couldn’t tell her that it’s in her quite sobs after her pet rabbit died at labor, her prayer to God eventhough we both know she isn’t religious, her raspy voice over the phone everytime the same nightmare chased her good dreams away and I wasn’t there to hold her. I couldn’t tell her all that. Instead I swallowed them all down and tell her,
“I don’t know for sure, but maybe, maybe it sounds quite like this.”
— and I played her the music.
a/n: here’s the link to the ‘music’ I’ve mentioned up there:
